Did you know that when female Praying Mantis mate, they bite their partners head off? It's not clean, she nibbles and tears at the flesh like it's just a fruit. Perhaps it tastes as sweet as one. I don't think I'd taste sweet. I'd taste sour and bitter and she'd want to spit me out the moment her pincers sunk into my neck. I'll push my head further into her jaw until she cannot do anything but bite lest she choke.
I liked to read when I was younger. Documents I shouldn't have read and books I never understood. That's how I found these documents. They're very interesting, even though I was there for every day that these document. But this isn't about me (or it is :P). I found an encyclopedia about insects belonging to Dr. ?????. She left it open one day and I managed to rip one of the pages out and run. I don't think she ever figured out it was me. The page I took was about the Praying Mantis, and that's how I learnt this.
I was scared at first, only being 12 when I read it. Would 2217 bite out heads off in the middle of the night? I didn't sleep for a week. But every day I read it over and over until I knew it by heart then I read it once more for good luck. Praying mantis only kill their mates. I was safe.
We got older and our friendship turned into something more. Then the fear returned. It was irrational, maybe, but it was so real too. Baby was submissive, stayed in line and followed every order. Dotted her i's and crossed her t's, while I scribbled on the pages and write what I wanted. She developed the drone mentality as she aged, I could tell Dr. ????? was deligted. I was too. She was prime for me to rebuild as the world around her broke her piece by piece. I never kissed her on her "lips". It was a peck on the cheek or forehead. I never let her kiss me either, she said she didn't mind and so I believed her.
One night she tried to kiss me and I shoved her away. I'm not sure if I shoved her away or my instincts wanted to keep me safe, but she fell to the ground regardless. She looked at me with her large, wide eyes and once more tears ran down her face. I helped her up and comforted her, saying that she scared me and I was tired. She lapped at the excuses like a hungry child drank from a dirty puddle. She had to take it, because what else would she do?
I didn't have to worry about my pretty head much longer. It happened and she was crushed beneath rubble. We had an arguement a week ago and I was am still mad about it. I took one of her pincers from her beautifully frightening face for my own. It makes a wonderful hair comb. It feels like she's running her creepy hands, feet(?) limbs through my hair once more.
I truly hate her. Ugly raw and bleeding I cry into the night when I realise what I have lost.